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Saturday, May 19, 2012

12 months DTE!

I cannot believe I am writing this post.  Honestly, I expected our sweet baby boy to be home long ago. 
My intention with this blog originally was to chronicle our experiences in adoption.  It has often been my outlet for thoughts and feelings bubbling up within.  It became an avenue to share the emotions resulting from our roller coaster ride into parenthood.  For obvious reasons it quickly shifted focus.   Our sweet baby girl was born and I was forced to decide to keep only this blog, or begin another new one devoted to her, while keeping this purely for our baby boy.

I thought long and hard and ultimately decided to keep the one blog unifed by the journey to BOTH children.  You see, one child does not exist without the other.  They are BOTH PLAN A.  So...it is time to spend a few moments to reflect on this adoption journey, as our paperwork has been in Ethiopia for a year now and our "paper pregnancy" is still going strong.

 Lee and I are currently working to update our paperwork.  Yep, its time for new fingerprints, FBI background checks, updated financial paperwork and another homestudy.  Its been just long enough I've already forgotten the details involved in an adoption.  I suspect its quite similar to forgetting the labor pains we experience in childbirth.  How quickly we forget.  I think that is God's built-in protective mechanism. :)

So here we are.  12 months in and naturally I begin to reminisce on how we got this far and I see God weaving the tapestry to adoption together since I was a young girl.

In the early 1980s, Ethiopia was wrought with the worst drought in its history.  People were dying on the roadside, water was scarce and food was unavailable.  Parents died and left their orphaned children to die.  When I was about 9 years old I saw the images.  A small bloated child with sullen eyes, flys buzzing round.  It broke my little girl heart.  Our church did a "Crop Walk" to raise funds to help feed these poor children.  I cried as I lay awake nights thinking of them.  I remember telling my mom I'd like to adopt one someday.  I wrote a poem about "Hungry Ethiopian People" for my Girl Scout fair and got a ribbon.  A couple of the lines went something like this:

Hungry people are starving today
They don't even have any money to pay
Hungry people are big and they are small
They don't even have a big shopping mall

I never shook the feeling that God had something in mind for me to do for them.  I remember laying on the snowy ground on Christmas Eve when I was about 4, making snow angels and staring at a star.  I remember feeling God so strongly and knowing He had a big plan for my life.

Fast forward to 2009 when I was laid off.  I had 6 months to pour myself into reseraching adoption.  Lee was somewhat interested but didn't come on board until much later when we attend an adoption support group at our church in Colorado and he saw two precious Ethiopian boys with his own eyes.  DONE.

And you know the rest of our story.  Here we are in our second year of "The Wait."  Our paperchase journey took much longer than most and now we're stuck on a list with little movement.  In 12 months we have moved up and down on the list.  All in all we've only moved up 10 spots in this time.  Not normal.  More and more things are happening to tighten up the adoption process, including most recent developments which state that certain health issues will now make adoption more difficult or impossible.  That coupled with current court delays and US Embassy restrictions are increasing the wait tremendously. In fact, when we first turned in our paperwork the wait to referral (being matched to a child) was only 4-6 months and now it is up to 18-24.  OUCH. 

We are certainly grateful for the new Concurrent Policy our agency instituted that has allowed us to stay on the list even though we were pregnant with and had Macie Faith.  However, having her has only made the longing we feel for our little guy so much stronger.  Luckily, we are busy with the care a 4 month old requires, but that does not speed up the time to bringing home our son and having Macie Faith makes us desire to bring him home all the more. 

We have not given up.  We will fight.  We will spend more money.  We will get more fingerprints, police reports, cashier checks and allow the social worker to dissect us more.  Anything and everything to bring. him. home.

He is precious.  He is desired.  He is loved.  He is anticipated. 

And so darling son, we are here.  We wait for you as we waited for your sister, with joy, longing, and hope. 

We thought you'd be here by now...But we know God's timing is far better than ours and one day we'll look back and our family will be complete and we will know that you came just when you were supposed to.

We love you!  It has been 12 months and we'd wait 120 years more for you.  We can't wait to hold you, kiss you, and love you in person!


And as this beautiful song says...

"I never knew I could miss someone I never met..."

Oh sweet boy, how those words ring so true! 


And now sweet baby boy...this song is for you. It's Mommy's favorite EVER adoption song. And every single word of it is JUST HOW WE FEEL.

PLAY DATES!

It has been SO much fun to enjoy the other children in our small group.  W hvae loved getting our kiddos together!  I dream of the day I can attend weekly play groups! :)  Macie has a best friend named Lucie.  She is our dear friends baby and they re SOOO adorable together!  In fact, we kind of think they look like twins! :)

 Lucy and Macie
 BFFS!

 FRO YO girls birthday night...

 Gabbin' already :)

 Play group!
 Me and my girl
 Mace and Luce

 Liam LOVES lil' baby girls!
 Lucy loves to give Macie Kisses!

A few 3 month videos!

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Thursday, May 17, 2012

3 month update!








Macie has grown literally before our eyes. What seemed to fit her perfectly one week, quickly becomes too short or tight days later. It is unbelieveable to see the changes!

Since the last update Macie has continued to love her play gym! She reaches for the monkey and talks to him, making gurgles, coos and razzes. Her smile is so common now, that we know she isn't herself if it isn't apparent. :) Her smile lights up her whole face! Noone gets a better smile out of her than Daddy! :) We've also just begun to see the start of laughing. When we do "YMCA" with her arms, or tell her to "Ride your bike faster, faster, faster" with her legs, she grunts and shakes as she tries to laugh. MELT. MY. HEART.
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We seem to have turned the corner on the colic stage. We weren't sure what was normal, but now we know we did in fact have a quite fussy baby. We're grateful we have been able to soothe her and never felt overwhelmed. Now, we are enjoying the fruits of our patience...and happy, joyful, kicking, flapping, giggly little girl!



Macie's accomplishments are plenty!  In the past month she has begun to hold things and absolutely loves anything with monkeys on it!  Just like daddy, she thinks monkeys are fabulous!  If they are her monkey footed jammies, she stares at them.  If she sees her gym monkey she razzles and coos, if she has monkey socks she stares.  Every single time she sees a monkey she talks to him/her the same way.  Its amazing!

Macie is very busy and active!  She loves to look at EVERYTHING!  She also gets annoyed if we expect her to stay in one place too long.  It saddens this mama's heart that she often prefers playing on a blanket to mommy holding her. Sniff sniff.  Our little angel is growing up!

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I have been back at work for  month!  I absolutely DREADED the return but thankfully, my co-workers made it slightly better.  Prior to returning I spent many a night sobbing by her cribside and cuddling extra moments while tasks around the house remain undone. Please forgive the delay in getting thank yous and birth announcements out, my only excuse is cuddling with my babe.   :)
I have waited for this child my entire life. Caring for her is what I feel I was born to do! I grow more in love with this child every second. Lee and I feel overwhelmed with our affections for her and stare in disbelief that she is even ours!


Friday, May 4, 2012

Catching up!

Here are a few photos of Macie between 2 and 3 months of age!

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Macie LOVES monkeys!  Seriously.  This monkey is her favorite thing!  It instantly calms here and goes everywhere with us!  She loves her Sock Monkey from Cousin Tyler and also loves her monkey jammies best b/c she can look at her feet (which are monkeys!) :)

Turning 3 months!

There's a baby in my bed! 

Post Easter Dress Outfit!  Snuggle bunny outfit from Aunt Debb

Wearing Mommy's sweater and baby bonnet!


BIG girl!

Macie is becoming a wiggle worm!  I turned for a minute and came to find her having scooted off her play gym mat and her foot caught in the rings!  Well folks!  She's mobile!  She wanted to see the jumpy seat toys in the corner!

Play group!  BFF Lucy!

Ducky Outfit from Aunt Joycee and Lil' Gabs!

Miss Tropical!

Daisie says "I love my sister but can you give me some attention?"

First trip to Church in Kansas

Practicing for photo shoot outfit from cousins Debb and Kim

Hanging with Mommy
Macie trying out her new Baby Einstein, not quite ready

Love my furry sister!

Towel baby

Fishy bottom.  Outfit from Grandmommy Gail

Neighbor Grady LOVES Macie and visits often

Macie favors her left foot (do we have a southpaw on our hands?) and this is a video of her when I was doing aerobics in the basement. :)
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Thursday, May 3, 2012

Arizona!

What a fun trip we took to Arizona!  The reason for the trip was to see Lee's stepsister Alicia get married!!!  We turned it into a visit to see Lee's family as well.  We were blessed to stay in the Princess Resort and at Lee's Dad and stepmom's Casita.  We had deluxe accomodations the entire trip!
Macie kickin' it at the Princess
Tyler meets Macie! 
Tyler and Kevin came over on Friday night and we went out to the pool at the Princess.  Tyler and Macie LOVED hanging out.
Heading to the pool

Itsy Bitsy Teeny Weeny-Macie wears her first bikini
I LOVE flapping my arms

Tyler and Macie.  Tyler gave Macie the robe she is wearing!  So cute!
Hanging out on the hammock
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We went to see Cathy and Bobby Wilson on Saturday before the wedding.  Cathy was my mentor in Arizona and has always been like a second mother to me.  She and Bobby wrote our wedding ceremony! :)  Love them so much!
Cathy meets Macie
It was HOT HOT HOT (We remembered why we left Arizona! Whew!) and Macie was in dire need of a bath.  The easiest way to do it was to put her in the jacuzzi tub with me.  She LOVED it!!!!


Macie in her robe and holding her sock Monkey from Tyler

At the cocktail reception before the wedding

We were soooo blessed to have Joyce Cruz watch Macie in our room at the resort!

Auntie Ky and Ty Ty

We LOVE our Tyler Toone!
Reception!

Beautiful couple

Beautiful Bride and her Dad


On Sunday we went to Kona Grill (My fave!) and to a movie while Lee's Dad Tommy and stepmom Jane watched Macie!  They loved it and we had a little date day! :)

Grandpa Tommy and Macie

Grandma Jane and Macie